I've been too honest with myself, I should've lied like everybody else

Do Christmas carols annoy anyone in here? They annoy me that’s for sure. And there are only so many times I can listen to my father’s Natalie Cole Christmas CD without wanting to end my life. So out of frustration because it's impossible to go to the supermarket without hearing the same xmas carols in a loop about 3783 times, I made a little playlist of Christmas rock songs (most of which are full of lulz), that do not include Jingle Bell Rock, however. As that song is annoying as well, unless it’s Mean Girls style of course.

Manic Street Preachers - Ghost of Christmas

The Killers – Don’t Shoot me Santa

John Lennon - Happy Christmas (War is Over)

The Ramones - Merry Christmas (I don't Want to Fight Tonight)

Smashing Pumpkins – Christmastime (look at that video. It's HILARIOUS)

Sufjan Stevens - That Was The Worst Christmas Ever (so emo, I know)

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Deck the Halls (best vocal ensamble everrr)

That's it. Hope you like, at least a bit more than effing carols. :)

This was by far one of the best years in music of this decade. It just seemed like every single band I love released an album this year. Well, except for the ones that no longer exist. No, fuck that, even the ones that no longer exist re-united just to release albums this year. HOW IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE? Last year I didn't make one of these because I could find honestly, about 5 truly worthy albums. That No Air wankery was my favorite song from 2008. Go figure. But this year is so good. Apart from the bands I list in here, an insane amount of amazing bands released amazing albums; Alice in Chains, Pearl Jam, Air, Sufjan Stevens, Tori Amos, PJ Harvey, múm, Porcupine Tree, Peaches, The Flaming Lips, The Most Serene Republic, Kasabian, Zero 7, Metric, YATCH, The Dead Weather, the list is endless. I could make a top 40, I swear. But I'd bore everyone so, here's my top 20 instead.

20. Yo La Tengo - Popular Songs

I think the only word I can use to describe this album is enjoyable. This is by far one of the most enjoyable albums of this year and of Yo La Tengo's career overall, in my opinion.

19. Dirty Projectors - Bitte Orca

Bitte Orca is fucking amazing, DP are a really really good band, don't be turned off by the hipster dramaz that seems to be their burden. Or the cover Beyoncé's sister did of their fab single "Stillness Is the Move". Yeah I know, Beyonce's sister listens to the Dirty Projectors, what is happening to the world?

18. Them Crooked Vultures - Them Crooked Vultures

Oh god. Oh god. John Paul Jones of Led Zeppelin, Josh Homme of Queens of the Stone Age and Dave fucking Grohl of Foo Fighters/Nirvana. OH MY GOD. How can such awesomeness be contained in one single album, I don't know.

17. Indochine - La République des Meteors

I am a happy girl, Indochine hadn't released any new stuff since 2005 which is fucking ridiculous, so of course, this new album made my little fangirl heart squeal with joy. Of course, it's not their best, not nearly, but my god this band has been playing for what? 30 years? And they put out some quality stuff, it's amazing.

16. Grizzly Bear - Veckatimest

This album is great. This band is great. What can I say? I love them so much and I couldn't be sadder I've lost them to twatlight now.

15. Jónsi & Alex - Riceboy Sleeps

This is a side project of Sigur Rós lead singer Jónsi Birgisson and his partner Alex Somers, guitarist of Parachutes. Like, the Icelandic post-rock Parachutes, not the Warped Tour Parachutes. They make the most amazingly sublime music ever together. My love for these two guys is immense.

14. Mew - No More Stories Are Told Today, I'm Sorry, They Washed Away...

 I jumped on the Mew bandwagon too late (only a year ago). How the fuck could I live so long without their music?

13. Florence + the Machine - Lungs

Shhh. I love her. ILY FLORENCE WELCH. EVEN WHEN YOU SING BEYONCE COVERS.

12. Morrissey - Years of Refusal

MORRISSEY. Every year Moz decides to grace us with a new album is a good year.

11. Sonic Youth - The Eternal

Uhh, it's Sonic Youth. Nuff said.

10. Placebo - Battle for the Sun

This album is not really good.

It's filled with horrible, unchallenging, poorly written lyrics. That either repeat the same word over and over and over again, or the same sentence over and over and over again. Or have like, fucking choruses in Spanish, which is fucking CHEESY. The rhymes are weak and lacking in creativity. The melodies are repetitive and bordering on tiring. The singles they chose are tragic. Some songs are actually quite good, some are actually quite great, some are weird as fuck but work for some reason, but mostly, the album is just a bundle of clichéd, motivational, happy-go-lucky, "redeeming" crap. And fuck you's towards the ex-drummer.

And you know what?

I love it. I LOVE IT.

OH MY GOD WHY.

Failcakez, I love this clusterfuck of nonsense. I know all the lyrics. It makes me cry, it makes me sing, it makes me wanna do air guitar and a stupid little dance in my seat. Shoot me now. I fucking love this band.

So yeah, like I was saying, THIS ALBUM RULES.

9. Yeah Yeah Yeahs - It's Blitz!

It's a bit poppier, and more synth-oriented than the older Yeahs albums but it's still fucking brill.

8.  Danger Mouse & Sparklehorse - Dark Night Of The Soul

You guys HAVE to listen to this. Stop whatever you're doing. Danger Mouse (member of Gnarls Barkley, producer of Gorillaz and Beck, mash-up artist extraordinaire) and Mark Linkous (aka Sparklehorse) wrote a set of 12 AMAZING songs that feature vocalists of the likes of Frank Black, Iggy Pop, Julian Casablancas, The Flaming Lips and Suzanne Vega amongst others. Due to problems with EMI (yeah, what's new?) he album itself is not available for purchase, BUT you can buy the book that was meant to accompany the album, which is, get this, 100+ pages of original photos taken by David Lynch which are a "visual narrative" of the album. HOLY SHIT HOW AWESOME IS THAT? Also, with the purchase of this you will get a blank CD where you can basically record the illegally downloaded mp3's. So yeah, in a nutshell; THIS IS AWESOME. SO AWESOME.

7. The Gossip - Music for Men

I was never really into the Gossip before this album came out. I have to admit it was the uber catchy Heavy Cross that caught my attention, but I listened to the rest of the album and was so very pleasantly surprised. Why had no one told me Beth Ditto has the most amazing voice evar? Damn you all.

6. Muse - The Resistance

*BRB. Face melting*

5. Patrick Wolf - The Bachelor

Many people bitched and moaned about how this was seeew different from Patrick's older stuff (especially the single, Vulture) but fuck it, I love that the guy re-invents himself with every album. Also, have you seen that video? Holy moley so wrong. And so right. And so wrong. But mostly so right.

4. Bat for Lashes - Two Suns

Oh god I just wanna be Natasha Khan when I grow up. She is so amazing.

3. Chris Cornell - Scream

jk, jk.

LOLOMGWTF. I can't get over how bad this is.

*weeps*

3. John Frusciante - The Empyrean

I may be alone here, but I think John Frusciante's latest solo album is better than the last 3 albums of the Red Hot Chili Peppers. He's just an amazing creative force that can't and shouldn't stick to one single genre. I always loved Fru's solo stuff, it's much more imaginative and experimental that anything the Chili's have done in the last 10 years. This album is a testament of that. Oh and did I mention Johnny Marr plays in two songs?! HOWS THAT FOR GUITAR HERO.

2. IAMX - Kingdom of Welcome Addiction

This is the best band formed during the last half of the 00's. That's it. No, don't even try to talk me out of it. They just keep getting better.

1.  Manic Street Preachers - Journal for Plague Lovers

Richey lyrics. Steve Albini produces. THE WIRE SINGS A WHOLE SONG. This album is epic in so many different ways, but mostly, it's just a flat out quality album, with great songs, smart lyrics and an over-all great production. And fuck it they're the Manics, of course they had to be first. Duh.

First off, let me say, I'm glad I had a good while to make this write-up, cause evidently, trying to sum up the life, work and legacy of Elliott Smith in only a few paragraphs is a tough task. I'll start with some backgrounds. He was born Steven Paul Smith on August 6^th, 1969. Even though he was born in Nebraska and raised in Texas most of his childhood, it was the time spent in Portland when he took interest in music and began going by the name of "Elliott".

He'd written piano compositions since age 10, but started recording his compositions at age 14. He formed his first band while still in highschool, a project he named Stranger than Fiction, though his first work that gathered some sort of recognition was the band he formed with Neil Gust, who he met and befriended while they were both studying at the Hampshire College in Massachusetts, Heatmiser. They recorded three albums Dead Air (1993), Cop and Speeder (1994) and Mic City Sons (1996).

While still in Heatmiser, Elliott released two solo albums, Roman candle in 1994 and a self-titled in 1995. Both of them were an unexpected success, which created tension between Elliott and his bandmates, and that ultimately resulted in Heatmiser parting ways for good and Elliott embarking fully into a solo career.

In 1996, filmmaker Gus Van Sant asked for his permission to use some of his songs for his latest project, Good Will Hunting. He agreed, and also wrote a new song for the movie, "Miss Misery". Around that time his third solo album, Either/Or was released to great critical reviews. The next year, Smith was nominated for an Academy Award for Best Original Song. Clad in a white suit and with an orchestra behind him, he performed at the Oscars ceremony, an experience he described as "strange" and "surreal".

After his newly found success, he was signed to a bigger label, DreamWorks Records, where he released his next two albums, 1998's XO and 2000's Figure 8. One year after the release of the latter, Elliott started working on his follow up album, From a Basement on the Hill, during which time he'd been struggling with his alcohol and drug addiction before ultimately agreeing checking into rehab.

Despite his earlier attempts at recovery and to surprise of friends and fans alike, Smith died on October 21, 2003, he had allegedly committed suicide after an argument with his girlfriend. From a Basement on the Hill was released posthumously in October 19, 2004 to mostly positive reviews. Various tribute albums and compilations have been released ever since, and the wall outside of Solutions Audio where he stood for the iconic cover photo of Figure 8, was turned into a memorial to him, with fans writing messages in it and leaving flowers and candles. In addition, his songs have been played in a number of movies and TV shows such as The Royal Tenenbaums, American Beauty and Paranoid Park, which proves the undeniable influence the music he created during his lifetime continues to have in present times, and probably will have for a long time.

Songs:

Needle in the Hay

Bled White

Between the Bars

Controversial, eccentric and undeniably talented, Fiona Apple is unarguably one of the most influential female singer-songwriters of the past decade. Born and raised in a family of artists, Fiona began playing piano and writing songs from an early age. At 16 she moved to New York, where she recorded a demo, which was quickly handed over to a record executive by a mutual friend.

Her debut album Tidal was released on the summer of 1996. The song “Criminal” and its video were soon on heavy rotation on MTV and the video for “Sleep to Dream” won the Best New Artist award at the 1997 Video Music Awards, the speech she gave out remains memorable to these days. She was subject of much criticism from both the media and her colleagues due to her outrageous attitude, her personal life as well as her admitted eating disorders, but the praises for the emotional honesty and maturity of her music mostly overshadowed this.

Her second album, When the pawn… was released on November of 1999. It reached the top 20 in the Billboard Modern Rock charts and spawned three singles, Fast as You Can, Paper Bag and Limp. The album also received a certain amount of attention when it got into the Guinness Book of Records 2 years later, holding the world record for the longest album title. (The entire title is a poem Fiona wrote in response to some negative readers' letters on Spin Magazine “When the Pawn Hits the Conflicts He Thinks Like a King What He Knows Throws the Blows When He Goes to the Fight and He'll Win the Whole Thing 'Fore He Enters the Ring There's No Body to Batter When Your Mind Is Your Might So When You Go Solo, You Hold Your Own Hand and Remember That Depth Is the Greatest of Heights and if You Know Where You Stand, Then You Know Where to Land and if You Fall It Won't Matter, 'Cuz You'll Know That You're Right”)

After years of silence, rumors began spreading in the internet that the release of her new album was being somehow truncated by Sony Music, as they were unhappy with the album. A successful fan-led internet campaign was made to support and encourage the release of the album. Finally, 3 years after its initial recording, Extraordinary Machine was released in 2005; it became her highest charting album and was nominated for a Grammy for Best Pop Vocal Album.

Songs:

Paper Bag

Parting Gift

Criminal

Undeniably a seminal band of the brit-pop scene, Suede (or The London Suede as they came to be known by American audiences) was formed in 1989 by lead singer Brett Anderson, his then girlfriend rhythm guitarist Justine Frischmann (who would later go on to become the lead singer of Elastica) and childhood friend, bassist Mat Osman. After placing an ad in the NME searching for a lead guitarist, the band came across Bernard Butler who auditioned and immediately got the part. The line-up was completed with drummer Simon Gilbert. After several personal difficulties and a break-up, Frischmann left the band in 1991 and it was then when Anderson and Butler began writing songs together, cementing the future of the band.

Packed with raving melodies and sexually charged lyrics, their self-titled debut album was released on March of 1993, with great hype from the British media, which the band (and the controversial lead singer, in particular) had been gathering for a while at that point. The album was an unprecedented success in the UK, and the band was soon praised by nearly every music magazine in the country.  

By 1994, the relationship between Butler and the rest of the band was already too tense, making the process of writing and recording the second album virtually impossible. He left the band while the album was still incomplete, and was replaced by 17 year old Richard Oakes who completed the recording. Dog Man Star, while not as successful as its predecessor, was generally well received by the critics. In 1996, and with new keybordist Neil Codling on board, Coming Up was released. Including hit singles such as "Trash", "Stay Together" and "Beautiful Ones", the album reached #1 in the charts.

The following albums, 1999's Head Music and 2002's A New Morning, were poorly received by the critics and the audiences, and the band split up shortly after. In 2003 they released a Singles compilation and a new song, "Attitude". Their legacy however, is irrefutable; considered by many one of the greatest British bands of the 90's, their sound and style influenced many bands that came after them. In addition, both Butler and Anderson have released solo albums  (People Move On and Friends and Lovers by the former, Wilderness and a self-titled by the latter), and in 2004 they joined forces again to form the Tears.

Songs:

Beautiful Ones

Animal Nitrate

My Insatiable One

She's in Fashion

Influenced by the likes of Bob Dylan, The Pixies and Television, Polly Jean AKA "PJ" Harvey broke into the music scene with her 1992 album "Dry". The raw, dark, emotionally bare sound and lyrical content of her songs became a trademark in her music, as proved by her next two albums 1993's "Rid of me" and 1995's "To Bring You My Love". The album, produced by Flood, John Parish and herself, was voted the best of the year by numerous music magazines, and contained one of her most successful singles to date, "Down by the Water".

"Is This Desire?", a heart-wrenching set of 12 songs written and recorded over the course of 2 years, was released on September of 1998. She describes the album as the best, yet more difficult record she ever made. Two years later she returned with the critically acclaimed "Stories from the City, Stories from the Sea", that went on to become the second biggest selling album of her career and won the 2001 Mercury Prize. Thom Yorke, lead singer of Radiohead, appears as guest vocalist in 3 songs.

The follow up of "Stories from the city...", was the slightly less successful but still brilliant "Uh Huh Her" in 2004. It was entirely produced by Harvey, and the instruments were all played by her, except for the drums. Her latest album "White Chalk" was a complete turn from her usual alternative rock sound. The songs are mostly piano-oriented, an instrument she didn't know how to play properly before, but the tunes still carry that gloomy aura that's unmistakably Polly Jean.

Songs:

Rid of Me

Dress

A Perfect Day Elise

Down By The Water

AKA 10 totally random, often embarrassing, definitely unnecessary facts about moi. I was tagged by my gurl Adani, so here goes:

1.  In my spare time I make ridiculous, unfunny, idiotic comics like this one

(No kidding yo, I made that shit when I was 15. It goes on for 12 pages more. It's godawful.)

2. I find Devendra Banhart strangely sexy.

3. I don't eat any dairy products, except for milk and only in shakes or cereal... when it doesn't taste like milk. I take the cheese off pizza and order my hamburgers with nothing but lettuce, onions and ketchup. (and the meat obvz duh) Not only cheese, I also hate everything else in them. I am so picky about food it's goddamned annoying.

4. In 6th grade I had an unhealthy obsession with the show Cops. Lawlz at me.

Bad boys bad boys whatcha gonna do whatcha gonna do when they come for youuu

5. Some people read the Bible when in doubt. I read Camus.

6. Twilight makes me LOL.

7. I have a massive girl crush on Adriana Lima

8. I watched this video  the other day, even though I knew I wouldn't understand SHIT, but didn't care. Cause he looks so pretty he could read the phone book to me and I'd still pay attention. FML

9. I cried more during Fluke, Marley & Me and Eight Below each, than during Schindler's List, Brokeback Mountain and the Shawshank Redemption, together. 

10. I always think I secretly annoy the shit out of everyone I know. For instance, all of you.

Now I shall tag: crash13, eyelinersmudge, sweetseryn, kitten76 and lev011.

Mixing the hard, guitar ridden sound of heavy metal and the edge of alternative rock, Alice in Chains proved to be one of the most iconic and successful bands of the early 90s. The original line up consisted of bassist Mike Starr, drummer Sean Kinney, guitarist and back-up singer Jerry Cantrell and legendary vocalist Layne Staley.

Formed in Seattle, Washington in 1987, Alice in Chains rose to success in 1990 with the release of their debut album Facelift, which included the hit singles "Man in the Box" and "Sea of Sorrow".

On September 1992, and after contributing to the soundtrack of Cameron Crowe's movie Singles, the band released the commercially and critically successful Dirt, which was followed by an extensive tour during the rest of 1993, and the departure of Starr, who was replaced by former Ozzy Osbourne bassist Mike Inez

After the release of chart-topping EP Jar of Flies and eponymous album Alice in Chains, they returned for their first concert in 3 years for their 1996 MTV Unplugged, followed by a long hiatus, only interrupted to record 2 songs; "Get Born Again" and "Died", both on 1998. During this time also, Staley and Cantrell got involved in side projects, Staley as the lead singer of Mad Season, alongside Pearl Jam's Mike McCready and Screaming Trees' Barrett Martin, and Cantrell releasing a solo album, Boggy Depot.

On April 19th, 2002 Layne Staley was found dead in his Seattle condominium, which he rarely ever left by that time. He'd been victim of a heroin and cocaine overdose two weeks earlier, on April 5th. This tragic loss inspired Cantrell's sophomore solo album, Degradation Trip.

These days the band has re-united, and with new lead singer William DuVall they plan to release a new studio album, the first in 14 years, later this year.

Songs:

The band was formed in the early 90s by former DJs and childhood friends Liam Howe and Chris Corner in Hartlepool, England. After working on several EPs, they recruited Ian Pickering, David Westlake and singer Kelli Dayton in 1996 for the release of their debut album Becoming X. Their sound that incorporated elements of alternative rock, electronica and downbeat, made the album a success in the United States and the UK, where single 6 Underground reached #9 on the charts.

Apart from their original material, they have done remixes for artists as varied as Placebo, Natalie Imbruglia, Sophie Ellis Bextor and Eagle-Eye Cherry, and they're owners of independent record company Splinter Records, which has signed acts like Robots in Disguise and the Servant.

After the departure of Dayton on 1998, the band decided to give their sound a full change, in order to avoid being stereotyped inside the fading trip-hop scene, creating a stronger, more rock-oriented sound. Guitarist and main lyricist Chris Corner then took over vocals for the next two albums, 1999's Splinter and 2002's Bloodsport, before venturing on solo project IAMX.

Songs:

Post-Modern Sleaze

Loretta Young Silks

6 Underground

I'm probably lame for doing christmas wishlists cause I know I can’t afford any of this. It’s nice to dream though.

Any tee from this website. 

Preferably any of these.

These books

“Everything: a book about Manic street preachers”

“Of Grunge and Government: Let's Fix This Broken Democracy”

Comic Book Tattoo

A series of 51 graphic novels inspired by Tori Amos’ songs.

All those imported albums I can’t find anywhere and cost a fortune

Especially all my trip-hop, brit pop and indie fuckery

The seasons of the Mighty boosh on DVD

W00t

Am I sick for kind of wanting this?

Don’t answer. LOLOLOL

A camera

A real one not the shit I have

With the Lights Out

(It’s less dangerous) yeah as if, I’d have to sell all my belongings to buy this.

That’s all. I’m starting to feel the chrismas spirit. I hope I can actually see my family this year, cause last year I couldn’t and I stayed home with mom eating cake, drinking wine and watching Grey’s anatomy :(

Which reminds me, one more thing

I’m lame.

Remember this? Many people did one, basically you write down things you wish you could tell to 10 different people. May be friends, family, interwebz friends, girlfriends, boyfriends….  crushes that never became anything *sad sigh*, people you don’t really know, hell even celebrities or such. I feel it’s the right time to do this.

1. Oh if you knew, if you just knew all I do to get your attention, maybe you’ll stop ignoring me, or maybe you’ll distance yourself more. I probably try too hard, but ah, I suck. Either way I hope it’s not noticeable, cause the thought of losing you is unbearable.

2. Ugh, I don’t like you, I don’t like you at all. You’re fake, you’re spoiled, you think the world revolves around you, you’re so conceited. In time you’ll realize it and you’ll start treating your friends like that, like friends, not fans. You’re no celebrity, just cause you think you live like one doesn’t make you one. Honestly? You suck. Really bad.

3. I don’t know what to do with you anymore, you’re always seeking for attention. Grow up already, you DON’T need it! stop whinning. Stop feeling pity for yourself. And that comes from the biggest self pitying whinning person in the world, you’re even worse. Damn.

4. I miss you so much. For years I feared, you hated me for what happened, now that I know you didn’t I can’t wait til we meet again. You’re the only person I know for sure would never do me wrong, we’re way beyond that. I hope things are the way we left them.

5. You. Fucking. ROCK. Thanks for your friendship cause I don’t know what I’d do without it. Keep being the sweet girl you are and never let anyone change you! You’re amazing like this! I wouldn’t change a damn thing about you.

6. Just fuck you. Someday you’ll get what you deserve.

7. I miss you. I honestly do, but I hope you’re happy and I think you are. Cause you deserve it like no other person I’ve ever known. I think of you often, I wonder if I did something wrong, if I could’ve done more for you, I wonder if you’ve grown to dislike me, I hope not, cause I still love you to pieces.

8. You’re sooo vaaaaain you probably think these lines are about youuu, you’re so vaaaain I bet you think these lines are about you don’t you, don’t you?

9. You’re 2 cool 4 skool, really, you’re so confident, I wish you liked me better. Ugh, I think, no, I’m sure I probably annoy you. Sorry about that. But I can’t help being me.

10. I always thought we’d end up dating. I know, it’s stupid, but somehow it made some crazy sense to me. I think for a moment there you thought about it too, but I freaked out, I didn’t wanna lose you as a friend. And I’m glad we didn’t, cause I have so much fun geeking out with you bb.

Sorry for being criptic.

Yeah, that game! You know it, set my player in random, write down the first line of the first 20 songs I got (no matter if they suck, and trust me, some do). And, you guess them. If you google any of these, Heidi Montag will sneak into your room at night and sing to your ear. Ok not really but it would be cheating and cheating is LAME. Really :( But I wouldn’t know if you cheated so, it’s pointless.

1. Well you can bump and grind, if it's good for your mind T-Rex – Children of the revolution
2. Lies and betrayals, fruit-covered nails, electricity and lust, won't break the door
3. Rows of houses all bearing down on me Radiohead – Street spirit (Fade out)
4. I need an easy friend, I do, with an ear to lend Nirvana – About a girl
5. She grew up in an Indiana town, had a good looking momma, who never was around Tom Petty – Mary Jane’s last dance
6. What a beautiful face I have found in this place
7. You wired me awake and hit me with a hand of broken nails Soundgarden – Rusty Cage
8. Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man?
9. Standing in line to see the show tonight and there's a light on, heavy glow Red hot chili peppers – By the way
10. Well I wake up in the morning, look at my clock, It's way past noon time Nick Drake – Been smoking too long
11. Can you hear them, the helicopters, I’m in New York PJ Harvey – This Mess We’re In
12. Today, she’s been working, she’s been talking, she’s been smoking Suede – Saturday night
13. Excuse me, I apologize, he likes your attitude, he tries it on for size Placebo – Lady of the flowers
14. Oh you look so good, I don't wanna let go, and although I should, I can't leave you alone
15. I see you couldn't catch your breath, believe me, it's all that it must be  Sneaker Pimps – Splinter
16. World was on fire and no one could save me but you Chris Isaak – Wicked game
17. Sweetness, sweetness I was joking when I said I’d like to smash every tooth in your head  Smiths – Bigmouth Strikes Again
18. Beauty finds refuge in herself, lovers wrapped inside each others lies Manic Street Preachers – She is Suffering
19. How can I believe this miracle, where the wind blows dry
20. Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, I'm begging of you please don't take my man  White Stripes - Jolene

Some of these have talked intros, so I used the first sung line. Sorry if you’re offended by your favorite band being in my library along with some truly shit music. Terrible musical taste: I haz it.

I was tagged by blackegobox to make this survey, so here goes.

1)How are you at the moment?
Lonely, sad, massive low point in my life.

2) Why?
I don’t know. Everything is shit in my life right now. I just want to shut off the world. I’m listening to evanescence, go figure.

3) Give me 5 bestest persons at buzz.
no wai, I can’t, I love too many people too much. And who the fuck am I to rank people like they were fucking items.

4) Do you like yourself?
No

5) What do you like to do in your free time?
Listen to music, watch movies, watch tv, watch movies on tv, watch musical movies on tv, that would be the 3 together. Ha. Ha. Ha.

6) Do you think you're able to do everything you'd like to [right now, from that place, are you confident enough //not in future]?
Haha, no

7) Do you think fighting makes any sense?
nope

8) Was last question clever?

It was ok

9) Which places would you like to visit?

New york, Paris, London, Wales, uh, Italy maybe, hmm Thailand, for some reason

10) Honestly, give me one person from buzz, who made you feel special, like their friend? 

I won’t say names, but I guess most people who know me long enough know who that person was. Lately, well, many people but what’s the point of mentioning them if no one will read this anyway?

11) What's your mobile phone?
a really shitty old Nokia. It has snake II XD

12) Would you like to have (new) one?
Not really. I love snake.

13) Do you like to smile?
yeah I guess

14) Write poems?
nah, I used to write sometimes, and they were so emo and annoying even I can’t read them anymore

15) Eat?

Do I like to eat? Well that’s complicated to answer at this moment of my life. Come back when I stop failing at it.

16) English?
I like it cause I speak it quite fluently and it makes me feel good about myself XD and cause I can understand many things in the interwebz thanks to it.

17) French?
I like it, but I don’t think I’d be good speaking it.

18) Slovene?
never heard a single word of it

19) Polish?
It just seems too complicated to me, too many consonants D:

20) Sports?
I hate sports too much for you to understand

21) Internet?

22) Do you think life gets better or worse day by day?
I don’t know, it has its ups and downs I think. What is it with these quasi philosophical questions in buzznet quizzes? 

23) Are you nervous or calm person?

Too nervous to function properly.

24) Is there any message you'd like to tell the world?

Keep a clean nose, watch the plain clothes, don't follow leaders and watch the parkin' meters. Um, I don’t know where that came from.

25) What's your favourite line in a song?
Ken leee, tulibu dibu douchoo, ken leee, ken leee meju mooore. If you haven’t heard that song shame on you. No, um, I don’t know, I like all the lyrics from Spit it out by IAMX right now. Pleasure for pleasure, it’s ease is consequence enough for a fall, but I know you love to take the risk

26) The cutest thing you've ever heard?

Kittehs meows

27) Do you love your parents?

I do. I wish they could stop making me feel like shit.

28) What would you do if tomorrow is the last day of your life?
Kill myself. Wait, that didn’t make any sense.

29)Do you often think about death?

All the time and it freaks me out so STFU.

30)Is this the last question?
I don’t know, is it?

31) Are you sick of tag-tests? 

Never

I tag no one, cause there's fucking no one on buzznet anyway

Guilty pleasures, we all have them, admit it. it just so happens, mine are way crappier than yours XD I think haha. Mmmkay…

So. I like musicals. Like, a lot. And when I say that, I don’t mean the average “I saw Moulin rouge/across the universe/hairspray and I thought it was cool” or “I saw Sweeney todd and omg Johnny was so hawt now I’m lyk, a super fan”. Noo. I mean I really REALLY love even the cheesiest, corniest of them all. HARCORE fan.

Cats. Yes pleez! I love me some Andrew Lloyd webber. “Memory” makes me cry, IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL! DANG!

The phaaaantom of the opera is theeeeere. Yeah I love it too.

Tonight tonight, it all began tonight

I’ll stop now cause I seriously like every musical I’ve ever laid my eyes and ears on. Which is like, a ton.  83 last time I checked. Yeah I should get a hobby. Oh btw, you laugh at me because I love my musicals, you and I are gonna have a problem >:(

Now excuse me for having a normal childhood, but I really digged boybands. I know I’m alone there. I know all my friends in school were listening to green day back in the day so I was left alone all the time in that. And I know all of you were also listening to awesome music at age 10, hmm yeaaah. So. I didn’t ha. I still don’t.

I don't know if anyone remembers these guys

they were called O-Town, and had like the cheesiest song ever called "Liquid dreams" I used to love it lots, lately I re-found it digging through some files in my PC and ooooh man! That shit’s bad. I love it :D

The Backstreet boys…

Rule. So STFU.

Papa roach

Now I KNOW most people think they fail. I personally, have a very strong emotional connection with their songs (emo being the keyword).

On girls groups issues, I am pretty much up to anything. I don’t know how many of you EVER got to listen to these songs (this is what’s really lame about my guilty pleasures, not only are they awful, most of them totally flopped), but I was all about them about 4 years ago. Girl band #1, Girl band #2. OMG how embarrassing. They promoted them so heavily in Nickelodeon and disney channel it's not my fault!

When I think of Swedish, right after the Muppets chef, ABBA, The final countdown and Stefan’s gay dance, I think of the shamelessly teenie girls group Play. Click here for the preppiest, teeniest, cheesiest, girliest song you’ll ever hear (which I LOOOVE)

They sang a song which would later be covered by my next guilty pleasure. Um….

The Cheetah Girls

Did i just ruined animal prints forever for you? sorreeeh

The song in question is my favorite by them, Cinderella XD you thought liking Hannah Montana was lame? Think again. I think this is much worst. I even know their lyrics. I’ve watched the movie a million times. There you go. I CAN’T BELIEVE I JUST ADMITTED THIS! My indie cred is screwwwed. If I ever had one.

No girls group will ever match, the love I feel for these girls though

Destiny’s child (and side, solo projects. Especially Beyonce’s)

Diss them all you want, I admired them lots and still do. They are focused, disciplined, talented, and I still think they’re a way better role models than say… the pussycat dolls. When I was a kid and I listened to Independent woman, or Survivor, damn that made me feel empowered.

Still love you B. You go girl XD

Mariah Carey

More than a guilty pleasure. This woman was my fucking IDOL 3 years ago. I thought she was simply the greatest performer ever. My love/hate relationship with her music is like:

1998: ewww. I don’t get how someone could like that fugly bitch. She annoys me

2000: Well, she’s not that bad!

2002: omg. She’s awesome!

2004: Haha! Is she even still alive? Who cares about that bitch anymore?

2005: AHHH OMG MARIAH CAREY BEZT SINGER EVAH!!!!!!111ONE!11111

Late 2006 – early 2007: EWWW! What was wrong with me?! I’m so rock n roll. I can’t listen to that... thing. *listens to Radiohead*

Now: ok ok! I know she sucks but I like her! XD

Her voice is like whoa. I love her and probably always will :( you probably wonder, how the fuck someone can go from thinking Mariah Carey is the shiz to worshipping PJ Harvey in less than a year. If you find out, let me know, cause I don’t know either.

Timbaland

I LOVE THIS GUY! AND EVERYTHING HE DOES! Everything. Lately I find myself liking his productions too much. He produced that “Outta my head” Ashlee simpson song, now it’s stuck on my head. The Nelly Furtado songs? Love them too. The old school Aaliyah ones? ruleage. AAAYOO! I’m tired of using technology. I fucking adore that one. But my favorite is that damn Ele-e-elevator song. I LOVE IT!!! :S

But nothing. Listen. NOTHING Timbaland has ever produced comes near in awesomeness, sexiness and utter win to the amazing

Justin Timberlake YEAH!

It’s hard not to love something you grew up with. I’ve loved this man since I was 10! That’s like half of my life! I love NSYNC haha, I won’t lie on that. I own all their albums and DVD’s

I love each of them with every inch of my heart ha! They were my favorites, for a long time! I was heartbroken when they broke up. But at least I knew, there’d be more Justin to come. (The afro slightly annoyed me to be honest.)

Love the voice, the dance moves, the looks, the man in general. And I’ll never be ashamed to admit it! I FUCKING LOVE JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE! Deal with it.

Thankfully the afro died and the sexiness was brought back

Oh yeah baby

Sorry I’ll stop now. *wipes off drool*

That’s it for now. There’s much much more, you’d be amazed by the shittiness of my musical “taste” if you can call it taste. Now I’ll listen to some alternative, experimental, indie, underground snobby  band to wash away the guilt. Or just Kelly Clarkson, like I’m doing right now.

I’m supposed to tag people, but like I don’t know who’d like to do this haha. Um, so I tag, anathepea, chloetraisnel, goldengirl, xxpuremorningxx, fucking hell. Over 900 people, and not enough close friends to tag. I fail at BN. Well if you wanna be tagged just say it, I have the almightly power.

P. S. OK ONE MORE! This song owns my life. Click here, you know you want to. *evil laugh*

Yay! So here it is, I finally got around to do It and I apologize in advance for future over excitement, fangirling and if at some point I get to call any of them god. I am sorry. I just can’t hold myself back.

Ok, so I left my house at 12 pm cause I wanted to see how many people there was at the autograph signing that was at 3pm. It was pointless, there were only 100 spots available and there were people standing in line since 2pm, yeah, of the day before. Ugh. I fucking hate it. Give us normal people a chance won’t you?! Anyway, the lady from the record store told me if I wanted to get a good spot in the gig I better arrive to the venue NOW, she said it like that. And I freaked out. So I left for the place, I arrived at 12:30 and I didn’t move from there. There was already a 50 people long line, some of them were there since yesterday the guard told me, and that the gates would open at 7:00 pm. “ok, so I’ll stay here standing 7 hours, I don’t care, I spent too much on the ticket and I probably won’t get a chance to be at a concert again so, I don’t care” I thought XD now, let me just say, those were probably 7 of the most annoying, shitty, angering, *other awful adjectives, like awful for instance* of my life. Just picture the first hour ok?

Me: Mom you really don’t have to stay here

Mom: oh shut up, you know you can’t stay here alone 7 hours until they let you in. you whine too much

Me: mom, I don’t want you here

Mom: *rolls eyes at me*

Ugh and it went like that for AGES. Then a lady about my mom’s age arrived to save the spot of her kids and they started chatting, about how ugly my temper is and how much of a loner I am, me listening to everything.  Just remembering it makes me so upset. Anyway, after that my mom left. I met a couple of nice people in there, there were lots of people from Mexico City cause they didn’t perform there so many people came over. I met a guy with whom I talked about how much I liked grunge and how much he disliked it and how we agree britpop owns. And another girl who went there alone too! XD The first fellow loner I saw in there, she was really sweet.

It was a looooong waiting. There were some guys who were making a sign that said “PLEASE SING MUSCLE MUSEUM” and on the other side “AND SHOWBIZ TOO” none of that happened unfortunately. Finally, at 7pm, and after being nearly grounded by the security guards a few hundreds of times, they opened the doors and let us in. I walked as fast as I could to get a good spot and I landed one in the front row! GOD DAMN IT I was so happy XD well I was waaaay on the right extreme of the front row but it was fucking front row!

The place was so filled with music snobs it was unbelievable. They all knew every lyric to every Joy division, Velvet underground, Bloc party and NIN song they put while we were waiting. Some guys bragged with me about going to Glastonbury and how they met Steven Tyler on Coachella D: SO, finally! At 9:04 pm, the lights turn off, and out of the left side of the stage comes Chris, waving and takes his bass. Guys, you have no idea my happiness when I saw him walking RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME, I was like :O O___O :O O___o *____* x___x then came Dom, he looked amazing, both were dressed in black. And then, the crowd roar and there he was, Matthew Bellamy, the first thing I noticed was his longish messy hair, his bright red shirt, and how utterly gorgeous he is in person (what? SORRY I JUST SAY WHAT I THINK!). They opened with Map of the Problematique, which I absolutely adore (but srsly, I adore all of em) so it was a great way to get the audience excited from the very beginning. Next up it was Supermassive Black Hole, yeah!!! XD I jumped for the first time of many that night during that. Later were Dead Star, New Born (OMFG AWESOMENESS), Butterflies and Hurricanes and City of delusion which was AMAZING and had kick ass trumpet solo XD

Then, Matt sat in front of the piano and I thought “now, this is gonna be good”. When I heard he started playing ”Space dementia” I ripped off a scream I think would’ve left the chick next to me deaf in other circumstances. It was mesmerizing, he printed so much emotion to every lyric, every word was simply stunning. Holy crap, that voice, THAT VOICE! Right after that, as if I wasn’t already too stunned by him, his voice, and his piano skillz for my own good, they played “Feeling Good” and another manic scream came out of me XD There were two big screens on each sides of the stage so I could see pretty clearly all the magic his fingers were taking out of those piano keys. It was, wow, I don’t know how to describe it, blissful, amazing, just so effin gorgeous. I sang the whole thing not giving a shit about anything for the first time in my life.

THEN, AS IF I wasn’t up in a cloud already, next up, came HYSTERIA. OH EM GEE, YOU GUYS, that song kicks so much butt live it’s just not humanly possible. I was especially spastic cause that had been my fave Muse song for like 2 weeks. Then STARLIGHT MY SECOND CURRENT FAVORITE. GAAAAH!!!! Soooo beautiful. How can anyone not be happy while listening to that song? And then. Oh my god people, AND THEN, that riff, those chords, TIME IS RUNNING OUUUUTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can’t…. I just can’t put into words, what I felt at that moment. I’d wanted to hear that song live for so long. I love that song so so much. I felt all the hours of waiting outside, in the rain, in the sun, all the fights, all the “you made me spend so much money on a stupid concert you loser” all the days of depression were worth, just for those 4 minutes of absolute awesomeness like nothing I’d ever experience before. I know it sounds lame, but that’s what music means to me. That’s the effect it has on me, it’s like the air I breathe, it’s EVERYTHING. Oh my godness, anyway, next up came Stockholm syndrome, one of my ultimate “on repeat” songs, A-MA-ZING. Then, they left.

After I had a few seconds to breathe and well, basically just breathe properly XD they came on stage again and Dom took the mic and said something like “for this next song we want you all to grab your cellphones and your lighters and put them up” and they started playing “Soldier’s poem”, the place looked so beautiful, like a million little stars were lighting it. And the only lighting of the stage were three red spotlights on Matt. Then, as if the shit couldn’t get more fucking sublime, “Invincible”, I nearly cried right there, I think I did tear up a bit. The lyrics hit you so hard, so deep when they are sung live, by such a wonderful man like Matt, and by thousands of people together

Follow through
Make your dreams come true
Don't give up the fight
You will be alright
'cause there's no one like you in the universe

Don't be afraid
What your mind conceives
You should make a stand
Stand up for what you believe
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible

Yes we are. As you know, the last part is up on the hard rocking mood again which was perfect to warm us up for the last 2 songs of the night. “Plug in baby”, fuuuuuccccccckkkkkk, too much win. Not only cause it sounds even better live than in the record, but also cause it was then when they threw out the huge white balloons, and of course the audience went ape shit. At some point Chris hit one of them with his bass and loads of confetti flew and it looked so freaking cool. Lastly, I already knew what came next, I think everyone did, but still the expectation was huge. So when the first chords of “Knights of cydonia” came on, we just lost it. That was the pinnacle of all our emotion. The song didn’t even have 1 minute to have started but there was already a mosh pit (which I got caught on btw, a few times), and people were headbanging and playing air geetar, bass and drums like crazy! Me included of course. The choir was the best part, oh wow, the words flashing on the screen NO ONE’S GOING TO TAKE ME ALIVE it just sent shivers down my spine it was so unbelievably A FUCKING MAZING, so intense, so full of energy, so PERFECT. The perfect way to end a perfect concert of a perfect band.

A few awesome things that also happened were Dom pulling out a mexican flag half way through the concert and hanging it on the drum kit, the trumpet player that came out dressed as a mariachi, Matt taking various guitar god poses, Chris being RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY FUCKING SELF OMG U GUYZ, and just how much they interact with the audience. I mean, unlike OTHER bands, Matt (and at one point Dom) talks to the audience almost after every song, in spanish all the time. The connection that you feel between the audience and the band is unbelievable. Muse were just born to perform live, simple as that. They put the maximum effort in everything, how much emotion Matt spits out in every lyric, how powerfully they play those fucking instruments, how they keep telling the fans how awesome they are, how thankful they are of us being here, making us feel like they are not the world’s biggest stadium rock band, but a band who still gives 110% in each and every single gig. It’s indescribable. I am in love, I am XD

Well. That was it. I had been living in a lie of what I thought was awesome. I didn’t experience true awesomeness until that very moment. I hadn’t been so happy in YEARS, 8 years at least, and I doubt I ever will be again. Well, until the next great gig at least. Matt, Dom, Chris, thank you guys, you have no idea what your little gig meant to me.

Green day FTW

Uh, I don’t know how to put this. I’m feeling a bit confused. I feel like I want to leave buzznet, but I don’t want to at the same time. It’s just that I feel this page has become sort of disposable in my life. Which hurts quite a lot. I have put so much of my time and my life in this that now I feel I’m just wasting my time in here. I used to have some people I was very close to in here… I don’t anymore. I just feel very tired of people in general. This usually happens, it happens very often but it passes quite fast. I don’t wanna leave, but I don’t wanna keep on wasting my time in something useless. Maybe it’s just me but this place keeps getting colder and colder every time.... yes, I think it’s just me. I should stop relying on stuff to make me feel happy cause in the end stuff will always let you down. Listen, I’m feeling tired and hurt right now, the only thing keeping me excited is the Muse gig which will be this Friday. I wanted to post pics and write a journal on it but I’m not so sure anymore. I’m trying to keep myself busy, trying not to think about how much school and my family are wearing me out. I’m taking lots of photos, I’m making lots of videos, I’m trying to get a little short film thing done but I don’t know if it’s gonna happen. I’m helping a friend write bits and pieces of a script but I’m not sure, it seems like a mess since now. But he’s the only one who gives a shit about the stuff I make outside of me. I’ve had a couple of terrible weeks and it’s not fucking fair, I’ve tried my best to keep it positive but stuff just keeps bothering me, ugh. I’m sorry for this, I don’t like to whine but I have to sometimes. I’ll be ok.

Okay, buzznet stopped hating me, this is the official entry, sorry if you tried to comment on the other one and buzznet ate your comment please don't kill me D:

So, for the first time, I’m not gonna whine in here haha. I mean in case anyone remotely cares about what the fuck is going on in my life, things are ok I guess. They got better than they were last year and at the beginning of this year…. Well whatever I’ll talk about that later. Here in buzznet, you know, I’m starting to (finally) feel comfortable, totally comfortable here in buzznet. I’ll start by saying that, I mean after I’ve gotten used to the fact I’ll be the eternal band pic poster and in the end I’ll remain alone doing that, I’m cool with it XD and I’ve many many awesome people lately. And that’s wonderful :)

Now, as of the “real life” issues, I’m quite happy with some things that have happened lately. I recently got in touch with some of my best friends from junior high and, it’s good to know I’m not the only nostalgic loser out there! We’ve been having a blast remembering stuff like, “oh and then we were going to buy a ship and be jedi pirates…” and, well, the things we used to talk about XD it’s hard to see how people change so quickly in so little time. I’ve known some of these people since we were fucking 6 years old! And now the guys have beards and the girls wear make up, phew, it’s hard to assimilate but it’s great. We’re not even the same we used to be, say, 2, 3 years ago. They don’t get my music either but, huh, I don’t give up, someday, somewhere, someone will. There’s this one girl who likes Iron Maiden and Rammstein and she used to listen to James Blunt the last time I saw her but nah…

Which leads me to, random music rambling. Have you heard of this little Welsh band?

No? Well if not then you HAVE to. Haha, ah, I’ve worn this topic out already. Yes, basically that’s the band that owns my life and soul right now, they’re my absolute everything, I thank everyday for every second they’ve been in my life and I wouldn’t be writing this if it wasn’t for them so, yes, you know all that. They own me. Along with other amazing ones like

Suede

Pulp

The Smiths

Elastica

The Jesus and Mary Chain

Happy Mondays

Pavement

The Stone roses

Dinosaur Jr.

And more. Sorry, moar XD I’m in this huge music discovery and re-discovery period in which I literally fall in love with a new band everyday :) So, I recommend all of those, they truly OWN. The latest one would be this guy who I already loved but now I’m obsessed with:

Chris Corner, the genius that he is. If you haven’t listened to IAMX or Sneaker Pimps’ “Bloodsport” you must asap. He has an amazing voice, mad geetar skills, he writes awesome songs. Aaaand… he’s gorgeous too *sigh* (what?)

And… also… well my childhood nostalgia carried me away a little… I listen to the Backstreet boys and Destiny’s child, and NSYNC and Britney on a regular basis again. Huh, well it makes me feel good. I stay up until 2 am watching “All that” on the N and it’s cool haha. Nostalgia = good times for me.

My family life is still a mess. It’s one of the things that can still make me feel like shit in a minute. My mother, well she doesn’t understand me (omg I’m so emo, I know, sorry) and I have.. things, I need to work out but no need for you to know about that. It’s too emo anyway xD

But, enough with the whining. Yeah, life seems to be getting a little better as of lately, kinda wanted to leave a statement that it indeed is

I just realized how random that was, sorry, I’m just, doing better, that’s all :/